The Power of Serenity & Intentions
Some of my anxiety is that I feel like I'm stuck in a negative world that isn't mine, it doesn't belong to me, and as in it's not designed for me. I was not a victim of domestic violence as a child. I was raised by my loving grandparents, aunts, and uncles along with my parent's involvement. I was always around loved ones as a child. Maybe there was one event that might have triggered some kind of trauma as a child but I overcame easily thanks to the time I spent in the wilderness with my parents and the LORD.
As a preteen, my parents decided to move out to the middle of the desert because they had their own marital relationship to work out to save their marriage. There our whole family benefited from getting to know our Lord Jesus Christ through scriptures from The Holy Bible.
Sure I missed my old world because it was a lot easier to live without the daily struggle of starting all over from scratch. Imagine having your own room as a preteen in a three-bedroom & two-bathroom home where the place is under public work service and a city water line. And moving to the desert where you have no neighborhood and no public services.
I had no control over what my childhood life was to be, my parents had their own relationship to save and God had the courage and love to save not just their marriage but our entire family for his Kingdom. We, as Catholics wanted to know more about our Lord Jesus Christ, so gathering in our home to read scripture was a good deed that served us well in our hearts and in the years to come.
We learn to love one another as it is written based on the golden rule unselfishly to treat others the way you wish to be treated. And with the measure which you measure, you will be measured. Without jealousy and envy and this occurs when one focuses on a personal relationship with Jesus Christ.
I know I lived a sheltered life as an adolescent and I didn't mind because I knew God had set me apart from the rest for his glory and honor. I wasn't the only one set apart. My cousins Eneida, Teresita, Nomar, Hilario, Ed, and David my brother Efrain, and our baby sister Kathy, we all were set apart to glorify and exalt God.
I'm a deep person and I made sure my marriage was founded on Jesus Christ, my spouse became a born-again Christian and so did my son and daughters, the proof is there. Pastor Leo Geovineti knows because in 2011 my family all became born-again Christians through Mission Valley Christian Fellowship in San Diego, California right before we got orders to the Rio Grand Valley.
My husband knew what he was marrying into with me because the sign has always been there even way before he got familiar with my background roots. Including my journaling, he had been very aware and supportive.
So why the financial power struggle if God is a loving and merciful compassionate God to his faithful servants? I don't want to be confused for being someone that I'm not because I am not a godless child nor am I an ingrate person. I like to live my life according to my standards and nothing less. As a homemaker and stay-at-home mother I think I did good in bringing my family to the Gospel. Even my inlaw Rachel M. Viramontes was all up at Mission Valley Christian Fellowship.
Christianity is not for the faint of heart and it's not a game, you can't pretend with the Lord, you're either hot or cold but lukewarm he spits us out of his mouth. You cannot live in a sinful nature and please God, this is biblical.
I got pictures of my husband volunteering and my children volunteering along with me for Champions. He even challenged the Champions program by a little girl in the name of Genesis whom he sponsored while I was still living physically in our home. I didn't envy the fact he was investing 38.00 dollars towards sponsoring Genesis which we could have easily used when we were on a tight budget. I saw it as a family's eternal investment in God's Kingdom. I don't live under false pretense and I hate the act of such because being honest comes with integrity.
Everything in my life is thanks to my faith in the Lord Jesus Christ & there is power in his name but there is more power living for him in spirit and in truth not just by lip service or based on what you wear around your neck. My life is strongly rooted in faith with works, my Sundays are set apart to honor him and congregate with other like-minded Christians in my community.
In knowing I'm a child of God I cannot reduce myself to anything other than what he's made me out to be in him. He says his grace is sufficient it makes me happy to know my time is invested with him. My time is the Lord's time and the Lord's time is my time and nothing can separate me from his love.
Knowing my worth and worthiness in Jesus Christ is knowing the ransomed price he paid for me to be alive. His atonement tells me not to fear the heart of the man for I am his, he loves the heart of the man and he loves me enough that he paid with his flesh and blood to see me victorious in him and with him.
He says I will be merciful unto your weakness (my children are my weakness besides my own welfare). He as in God knows my heart better than anyone else. He knows the heart of his own mother Mary, the Virgin Mary, in that he took the wrath of God and punishment upon his own flesh when he was innocent like that of a child.
I stand confident in knowing that men stand under good and wise counsel such as not withholding good deeds from those to whom they belong. If we have the opportunity to do good and to do the right thing then run to do so. Look for those glimmering moments of opportunity to do good, to serve well, to be gentle and kind.
In doing well with another is knowing one is grateful and happy and that comes from everyday life in the power and presence of Jesus Christ.
Thank you Lord for this moment, my mind is trying to cope with my thoughts and my thoughts are captivated by you. My purpose in life and intentions are yours altogether, Lord. Amen.
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